calina
I am ageing prematurely. just so tired.dunno how long will i hold out. life is so routine, wake up, school, tutorials, biz stuff then sleep. it happens the same from mon to fri. so sick of it. my motivation is university! get out of JC. been very sian and upset lately with biz stuff. the stress factor is reaching its peak and it is only january.how will i survive till april 21. somethings just can't be forced, when it does not go as you plan, you feel totally helpful, lost, depressed. that's life. tests tests tests. i am totally sick of it. nobody understands the pressure i feel, if something cock up, i get the blame. everything will smack me in the face. what scares me the most is the fear of disappointing pple who believe in me. i've chosen this path, i will perserve till the end no matter how much sacrifaces i have to put in. it's my life and i wanna make the best of it. ha, so contradicting, but life is contradicting!
January ending le. I think next month is not going to be fun. Events for February: 14 Feb Valentine's day 15 Feb My 18th Birthday 18 - 20 Feb CNY 23 Feb My mama birthdayHaiz... it's going to be a lonely birthday. all my seniors so busy, go army. sian... luckily my best friends hasn't forget abt me. but surely this year's present will be lesser than last year and the year before. how i miss IJ day. IJ is like a home, one will never feel lonely. well I think JC is much different, you get to know alot of pple, make alot of friends, but at the end of the day, there is this empty feeling inside u. i believe it is really hard to find good friends (except some pple, like dinosaur, porcupine loy, purple sister, didi, yao and "BEST FRIEND"). sad case, miss sa and jac and gracie and vian and cs and bk.hopeully u gals never forget me, i know sa and jac will definitely miss me. hahaha. big present hor and dun combine or else...well happy birthday to me.
i guess i can only update my blog every week, thanks to my busy shedule. i am seriously considering whether to step down as NE rep cos i really dun have the time to plan for another learning journey. with biz club welcoming the new juniors and planning for the major project( hopefully cooperate with XXX university).alot of pple think that biz club is a slack cca, but they are very WRONG!!! we are NEVER slack, the reason they think they do not have anything to do is because they do not participate in all the events. dun worry those who think that biz club is slack, i will look for all kind of events and competitons to fill up your "testi". i learnt one thing in cca bazaar, it is the fact the many cca have their benefits and disadvantages. i realised that the sports cca have what we are lacking which is teamwork. take dragonboat and kayak for example, they seemed very close knitted, the members know one another, however they lack events to fill up their testi. we have plenty of events and competitions, however i am quite certain that when we step down, there will be some pple who dunno others even though they were in the same cca for a year. i think that is really sad.haiz... i was sick again last thursday, gastric:( thanks to the lack of feeding time. haha. gastric really suck, it is worse than gastric flu, not only do u puke, there is this weird emptiness in your stomach which is really disgusting.i starting to dislike school, no. 1 reason for that is the horrible timetable! no. 2 is that all we do is mug mug mug. no. 3 is that there are so many test. but at least 2 weeks pass, as theresa has calculated we have 11 months left. i will listen to yao, jin yuan and han jie advice, study study study, the year pass really fast. yup hopefully before i know it, i am sitting for a lvl and graduating.
it has indeed been a really long time since i blogged. was really busy. i was away for a week to bangkok during 18 to 23 dec. surprisingly, the temperature was actually rather cooling, in the northern part of thailand, the temperatures even deeped below 0 degrees. the shopping there was unbelievably cheap. i bought this top from BANANA(kovan, heeren also got one branch) for 40 plus dollar and i found a similar one in bangkok selling less than $10. i was totally ripped off here la. however bought many souvenirs back for my friends. haha, the most worth mentioning is elton's, jin yuan's and yao yao's. i bought them each a t-shirt. the printing is super funny. on elton's, it reads "STOP LOOKING AT ME COS I AM GOOD LOOKING" something like that. haha, then Jin yuan one reads, "Born a Playboy" . I bet he totally loves it. but yao yao's shirt is the funniest of all. his shirt is to promote his current status "SINGLE IN SHIRT". i am such a nice junior to help promote him. hahaha.christmas went countdown with sa, jac, zoe, yao and jac's friend yh. we were at cine, bought 3.30am show THE HOLIDAY. before that we had nothing to do so we roam the street. haha, i used yao as my shield. sa, zoe and jac was snow sprayed by this group of guys. i was walking in front so i saw them shaking their can, i quickly pulled yao walk faster. haha. so in other words we were clean. before that we had a mini christmas party at my house. there were so much food. elton and jin yuan came over but too bad they cannot join us for the countdown due to some personal commitments. so sad.haha, then it was new year. the same group of pple went marina square to watch the fireworks. very spectacular!!! then can u believe it. we walked from marina square to cine. we bought tickets for the 3.25am SPIRIT OF THE VICTIM but the walk was super long and so we were late. the show is hard to comprehend, nobody understood it. yao said i was scarier than the ghost cos i tend to freak out during the scary parts. haha.today school reopen, the other gp class had common test 1 so fast. mine is on fri. so sian la. alot happened during exco meeting. i am totally looking forward to the 4 next months, i think it will be lotsa fun.now very tired, last night only slept 2 plus hours. so sad, all the seniors are gone. like elton said, i guess i am gonna be rather lonely. FAV SENIORS, must come back and see me. miss u guys. haha.
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