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calina

looking at the date that i last post, it's been more than 1 year. i guess nobody will ever come here and read my blog le... the abandon blog... but all the better, now i dun nid to be careful with wad i write here...

since i entered uni, so many things happened... and i have changed. looking at those pic that i used to upload, i am no longer the gal before. i used to live life very luxurously but now i am much simpler... i used to go town almost 5 times a week, and now it's been a long while since i set foot there... i know i prob shld be studying for my exams but part of me just simply wanna take a break, so i here blogging abt my simple life...

in my almost 2 years in uni, i met all kinds of pple... really all kinds, some are the kind where u think to yourself, we are gg to be friends forever, while there are those down right bastards too. i do consider myself as rather easy going but sometimes these people really push me to my limits... if u wanna climb up the ladder, dun step on me... I WILL NOT BE UR STEPPING STONE... but then these people can be so stupid, prob due to their lack of EQ that's y alot of pple are against. just tt they dun know... low EQ... hahaha

i have been chatting with a friend regd relationships... i realised i gain more insights as compared to the past. but then i believe people who behaves the way they are is not because they really want to, but it was simply that they were hurt too badly... i did walk down that path, even though thinking back, i was not really hurt that badly... i know my best friend also went down the same route... we shared info hahaha... but ultimately what we got out of it was something even more painful then the hurt we felt. to hurt someone is more painful than pple hurting u... cos u can always hate the people who hurt u but how can u possibly hate urself? i know of someone who is hurting really bad, but this person just dun know... as a fren, i will try to make u turn back and dun walk the same path as me, but it's gg to hard as this path can appear fun and exciting in the beginning and very addictive( as claimed by best fren) haha... haiz...

back to happy things, even though i have not been gg out much to shop, but i did do some online shopping thou... was camping out at some webbies, bought a black skirt from one, very satisfied... however got one shop, like shit sia... the dresses i bought was so sheer even though i bought black colour, my fren R she bought white, it was practically see through... hahaha... i shall blacklist this HORRIBLE shop... karma will hit them.... lol

right now cca stopped, not used to days without trainings. though i dun get in the water much, but the interaction i have with the trainees is something that i really treasure... i hope i can always be a part of this cca.

today i was eating a certain hall canteen in sch... i order some rice and dish then when it came, i was happily eating when i notice something green crawling. looking close, on one of the vegetable garnish, there was a freaking worm. it is not those tini kind. this was a huge catepillar. how could i miss it when the dish came... seriously... these late nights are causing me to be so blur... my tian... hahahahaha...

totally looking forward to after exams, got plenty of stuff to do... me and my fren C are gg to take over our cca, me as the P, she as vp, but poor gal injured her hand real bad tt she needs to go for ,mulitple op. she even joked we can have meetings in her ward... hahaha... but to think, i think we really got alot of things to do, alot of revamp i guess... new ideas to attract freshies...

for now i shall not think to much, just focus on my shitty exams and after tt, play!!!

# posted by *twinkling star* at 1:30 AM

ah... i finally gotten all the pics for my orientation camp. thanks ah gong for compiling them. camp insinyur was the one and only camp that i attended in ntu. I totally do not regret gg. it was the best camp i attended. 7days it was but time flew by.

Let me start with day 1,

DAY 1- The Journey Begins... Ice breakers

Met my roomie at Jurong East station and we took train to Boon Lay to meet our groups. I am in Sauron while she was in Salrumun( i dunno how to spell haha). the GLs brought us to our respective group and we self intro ourselves. Then we went to Macs to eat break first. After tt is back to NTU...

At NTU, we went to the hall to play some ice breakers... very common games but still fun. at that point i still cant rmb everyone's name. lol.

After all these games, we proceed to our knowing the campus games.

The day ended with supposedly some candle fight, but apparently it started raining heavily so we didnt play.

i shall post till here. i gg out and i am gg to be late AGAIN. i realised i have never been early nowadays. I shld go reflect. lol. I will post day 2 onwards tonight when i get back.

# posted by *twinkling star* at 10:14 AM

uni has finally started. i am so thankful i went for orientation camp man. i really cant imagine myself gg lect and tutorials alone. things have been gg rather smoothly. away from home is indeed fun but bad for health. since mon i have been gg out every night till 12plus. lucky got my new found buddy jolyn, edward and dhika to pei me, cant imagine spending my time in the room. i cant believe i have been sick for 5 days le. must be because of the late nights and the early breakfast. man! i am so gg to slp till 2pm tmr. haha. i cant wait for the camp pics!!! i am soooo gg to develop them.

i am seriously starting to love this place and the pple. made really great friends. i will neva regret coming here. haha

# posted by *twinkling star* at 7:27 PM

i dunno how to explain how i am feeling now. it's a mixed of excited and nervousness. my gosh, i will be gg for camp next week! 7days!!! my ogl just called, couldnt hear really clearly thanks to the lousy reception in my house. haiz... got night cycling, i am really bad a cycling sia! i can ride here and there, but sometimes very unstable. come on, i only had two practice sessions in the past 2 weeks. then he said to bring swim wear... omg! i think it is too late to hit the gym now. i better start thinking of a backup plan sia. haha. ahhhhhhh... so nervous. mon must wake up super early sia, meet at BOON LAY DROP-OFF POINT at 8.30am. how am i gg to wake up?!?!?! wadever it is, i will look forward to the camp with an open mind. jia you!

# posted by *twinkling star* at 9:53 PM

It has been a really long time since I blogged. So many things happening now... I finally stopped working, very reluctant to leave but I believe it is time to move on. After working exactly 7 months, I realised SPH has become a part of me. I miss everyone there, the really nice perms: Grace (Shi Fu), Wilson (Ah Pao), Maria, Farah and Priya. They have really been really nice to me. I would like to thank them personally.

Shi Fu, she taught me everything, I always bug her and disturb her with weird questions. She always patiently explain everything to me, answer all my stupid questions. Shi Fu always entertain me and LM. Haiz... I miss Shi Fu.

Then there is Ah Pao, wad are we gg to do if he wasnt ard. He always help us handle all our nasty sub. Whenever I am lazy to listen to the subs, he always help me tok to them. we often throw nasty cases to him and he help us settle. AH PAO rox sia! haha

Of cos, there is Maria. She is really very motherly. We LOVE her sia!. haha. she very funny too haha. I rmb 13 June happens to fall on a Friday, then LM said omg Friday The 13th. Then i repeated after her and Maria heard. after tt, we keep getting difficult calls, she jokingly blamed me for saying Friday The 13th. haha. really it was LM who said it. not me sia.

Farah and Priya are really great pple. Farah super funny. Although i only know her abt one to two months, but she is someone I will never forget for the rest of my life. She is fun and entertaining, never fails to bring a smile to our faces. Farah, I will miss you! Priya... Thanks for always letting me transfer the STI and BTO calls to you, honestly i have no idea wad those pple were toking abt. haha.

I will never forget my first job- SPH

Not to forget all the temps that I got to know, when i first came in. got to know Jia Jia, Emelyn, Wei Lun and Daniel. Jia Jia must be studying for A level now. Must Jia You! Emelyn is currently studying in Australia. Although we seemed to have lost touch, but i believe one day we will meet again and until then we will catch up on those CS days. haha. Wei Lun, i still keep in contact, he damn pro, gg to coloumbia university in New York on scholarship! Wow!

Many temps come and go, there's Hui Qi, Geraldyne, Suzanna, James and Hou Shun. Hou Shun xue zhang! cant believe he also from NY. my super senior. haha. he very nice, always help us put plates, open door and all. he has further proven that NY guys are quite gentlemen. haha

Of course, our clique, Yong Hua *YH, Wei Kang *WK, and my jie meis Eileen *EP, Lean May *LM and jac. I will always never forget our drinking sessions and chalet! Oh ya, I haven uploaded our cool pics. haha.

# posted by *twinkling star* at 9:54 PM

i have finally come out of my hiding. too many things have happened lately and none of them are good. i was recuperating from the lost of someone whom i loved dearly. he watched me grow up and care for me all these years. why do u have to leave me?!?! pple around me tells me that this is part and parcel of life. we all knew this will happen sooner or later, the doctors have gave up saying there is nothing that can fight against old age but then... my heart ached when i saw him lying in the coffin. the tear were uncontrollable throughout the funeral. but now, everything is over. i must let go for him to go in peace. grandpa, i will be strong and happy. i will cry no more. i will take care of myself. i will love you forever.

# posted by *twinkling star* at 4:09 PM

i am feeling very upset... have u ever been so sick tt u think u will just die tmr... some pple just dun get it, i am stressed, i know u are too. why the heck do u have to flare up at me. if today is my last day on earth, i bet u will regret, so stop threatening me. u think i do not feel anything? all these while, u are the one who put me on the rollar coaster. i think some day i will go mad seriously. sometimes u treat me so well, and when i reciprocate, u tell the whole world. i have pride, i dun need the world to do what i do for u. so pls stop embarrassing me. i am already damn pissed that u tell ur frens my results. i dun even disclose to my frens until they force it out of me. some pple even use it to rub salt to the wound. some of ur frens arent nice. just because some of them pretend to support u when... doesnt mean u have to tell them everything. i have a long list of examples of them being selfish and keeping stuff from u. wadever it is, no matter how much good you meant. let me heal... i need time, a 15yr scar wun heal that fast. but for now, i need all the strength to recover and go on. i am really tired...

# posted by *twinkling star* at 10:16 PM